I’m going to take a break from blogging and everything for a little while.
My husband had left for the UK on business. I was alone at our home. Throughout the day I started to spot. It made me nervous. It was about to get a lot worse.
I’m finding it hard to stay sane in these early stages.
Was it only a few days? It’s felt like a whole month. My world feels turned upside down.
It’s been a while since I posted. My mind has been elsewhere. My life pulled in different directions all at once. In November, after my return from Texas, we took out another egg.
It failed to mature.
My lining was over 10 mm, which is very good. We decided to go ahead and transfer our second best Day 5 blastocyst. Let the cards fall where they may. This would be my first Day 5 embryo transfer and I had no idea what to expect.
A common complaint I hear from my female friends is about their parents pushing them to have kids. That was never me. My parents knew I’d have problems with fertility since I survived cancer at the age of six. The doctors weren’t even sure if my reproductive system would ever turn on at all.
Instead of “when you’re a mother”, it was more or less “if you do have kids”. My parents hoped I could have children if I wanted them, but feared setting my expectations too high. After all, it wasn’t my fault if I couldn’t.
There was a sigh of relief among my parents and doctors when my reproductive system turned on at age 12 and worked perfectly through my early twenties. It seemed like maybe I’d defeat the odds.
Sadly, the odds caught up to me by my mid-twenties.
Even a dilapidated coal-miners’ island in Japan has a mascot
One of Nagasaki’s biggest attractions is Hashima Island, a former coal mining island that housed over 5,000 at its peak. The island is tiny and it’s hard to imagine that 5,000 ever fit here.
You can see shots of the Hashima Island used in 007: Skyfall.