Just when it seemed like things could get back on track I get the news that I’ll have to go into quarantine for most of cherry blossom season.
Thank you everyone for all your warm, thoughtful comments. I haven’t always been the best at responding to them, but I have read each one. I’ve felt a bid down the past couple months. This never ending miscarriage has made it a little hard to move one. But I will get back to my old self soon. And I’ll definitely work to better respond to each.
In good news, HCG is finally down to 10. Almost normal.
In bad news, a small piece of placenta is alive and firmly attached to my uterus. The doctor tries to use cutterage to pry it off, but it was causing too much bleeding. She felt sure if she tried, the bleeding would be so severe that they’d have no choice but to do an emergency hysterectomy. We will not risk that, so cutterage is out.
So the doctor has suggested instead to inject a kind of chemotherapy-like drug directly into my uterus that will reduce the blood flow and poison that remaining piece of placenta. It should not in anyway damage my ovaries are cause any long-term damage to my uterus.
We could continue to wait until this small chunk of placenta dies off naturally, but who knows how long that will take. Surgery is too risky and out of the question.
What really sucks is that four days after the injection, my white blood cells are likely to drop dangerously low. Meaning I could easily get sick. If I contracted the flu during this time it could kill me.
So the doctor says that I must stay inside my house for 10 days. If I go out to the supermarket I must wear a surgical mask and use hand sanitizer religiously. I’m not allowed on trains or anything. Not until my immune system has recovered. This puts it right at the heart of cherry blossom season.
If the doctor doesn’t give permission, I may have to skip on several hanamis with friends. I’ll have to skip on two weeks of Japanese school at the worst time possible (when they are changing all the classes).
I was shocked and heartbroken to hear this. The doctor feels very confident this method will work to kill off that last piece of placenta and force it to let go of its death-like grip on my uterus.
I just want this over.