The years are flying by, and I feel kind of sad because of the things that I don’t have or didn’t work out.
I want to be happy for the amazing things I do, but I find it hard not to fixate on the negative. It’s like having a class of 30 wonderful students, yet you can only think about that one bad student who makes it miserable.
You can have 20 As in a class, but that F haunts you. I suppose it’s natural to focus more on what isn’t working than what is.
So I’m going to try and focus on what I am thankful for as autumn bleeds into winter.
I am thankful for my husband most of all, it’s been nearly seven years and our love burns strong as ever.
I am thankful for my family and my father who has been a huge influence in my life. He taught me to believe in myself and to take constructive criticism which has helped me in improve as a person. Thanks to his influence I have never craved money and power over others to feel happiness. Happiness comes from the things I do and the people I help.
I am thankful for my work situation in Japan that gives me the flexibility to take a day off when I need to for infertility. It would be nice to make more than the pocket change I do, but it covers my personal expenses and let’s me have some cash to meet with friends.
I am thankful that my husband is happy again and feels happy at his work again. His situation before was really beating him down, but since his transfer he’s had an amazing turnaround.
I am thankful that I at least have hope to have kids. I know too many who don’t even have that. Having some hope versus no hope is a very different situation.
But most of all I am thankful that I am slowly learning to be happy with myself and the opportunities I have been given or have earned.
Thank you all everyone! What are you thankful for?