This Cycle Is A Bust

I’m not too heartbroken because we got a grade 2 embryo last month.  So now we have two.  

I am anxious about whether if I ever do get pregnant my adenomyosis will allow me to take the child to term. Very anxious.  Anxious to the point that I have scoured forums for success stories of women having children despite severe adenomyosis.  The prognosis on a lot them is not as comforting as I wish.  Many did have children, but their children were often born early.  Not one of them was able to take their babies to the full eight weeks.

However, surrogacy is illegal in Japan so we have to risk it next time we try again.

As for this cycle, apparently it’s a bust.  My E2 is over 250 on Day 5.  I wonder if I really went through a true period when I bled.

They extracted an egg that divided into an embryo.  From what I saw on the ultrasound the follicle it came out of looked very solid — round, good shape, and thick walls.  Did it not produce enough proesterogene to suppress a new follicle from growing?

Apparently, it did not.

I matured a new follicle. I have been noticing pain in my right ovary for days, but I kept thinking, ‘nah, can’t be. I’m in the luteal phase’.  Wrong.

A follicle did grow, but it’s really likely to be bad quality since it grew not long after the other guy got taken out.  I think I have a proesterogene problem.  (In fact, I can’t even spell that word).

So they want to skip this cycle and wait for my cycle to return to normal.

The doctor assured me that these things happened, especially in women over thirty.  (Thanks, doc :/  )

So who knows what will happen this month with a wily follicle that grew out of turn because my hormones failed to suppress it in the luteal phase.  And the little jerk is hurting my right side.

I imagine I’m going to have a super short cycle if this one ovulates.  I just hope it doesn’t turn into a cyst.  Those things can take a couple months to go away.

Here’s hope the next cycle is a go.

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When I was in my twenties, I moved to Japan and met a man there. We embarked on our adventure through life and love. I have lived with him in Japan ever since. We want to start a family, but that is proving difficult. I struggle with infertility. We almost had a child, but that ended in tragedy. Now we enjoy each day and hope that one day we'll hear the pitter-patter of little feet and the bubbly laughter of a child. In the meantime, I enjoy writing, love, studying, traveling, and working. These posts are my thoughts and stories of my life here.

15 thoughts on “This Cycle Is A Bust”

  1. Oh that is frustrating! I hope the next cycle is textbook and the outcome is as expected. You just never know when you’ll catch a good egg–I was told by my RE that I had cysts and would have to skip a cycle, but got a scan from my OBGYN showing a single follicle. So I did an unmedicated IUI (my 6th IUI) and *boom* it worked. Always leave room for the possibility that things will turn out *better* than you’d expect. XO

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      1. It is kind of amazing, considering I had been doing injectables for months (at IVF doses) and nothing was happening. I didn’t test until 15dp IUI because I was convinced it didn’t work and that we’d be moving on to IVF. You might google Barren Betty’s blog, maybe it’s
        She had one million issues and like 8 IVF’s that yielded zero or one egg–but eventually, it worked. She’s one of my fav bloggers and greatest success stories. XO

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      2. Oh wow, thank you so much. I’m reading your now. I’m always on the lookout for good blogs, especially on ones who overcame adenomyosis and still took a baby to term.

        I’m so happy your IUI eventually worked. We tried an IUI once and I bled for ten days after it. I don’t think we want to try it again 😦

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      3. That’s really good of them. Sounds like you have really good insurance. My friend in Texas couldn’t any coverage on her insurance about infertility. Not even talking to a specialist on it.

        Here in Japan we will get reimbursed for our natural IVF once we complete the process. So we have to pay out of pocket for the procedure, but once we put the eggs back we get the money we spent returned.

        Kind of sucks having to pony up that cash never knowing when and if we’ll get it back. :/

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    1. Apparently the Japan Times wrote on it:

      The relevant panel of the Health, Labor and Welfare Ministry as well as the Japan Society of Obstetrics and Gynecology have opposed surrogate births on the grounds that “people should not be used as a means of reproduction.”

      I find the people part interesting. They mean “women”. So basically they’re saying “women should not be used as a means of reproduction”.

      Which is like erm…

      It doesn’t even matter if it’s volunteer. Like a sister just wanting to help out her infertile sister and accepting no money for it.

      So now infertile Japanese couples go to Thailand for surrogacy and face the legal risks there.

      I find that thinking so weird

      Japanese male docs seem to have the worse bedside manners I’ve ever seen. Do they train them that way or something? :/

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